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My Dirty Little Secret

  • When we hear the phrase "Dirty Little Secret." we tend to think the absolute worst. Truth be told that's why some of you are reading this post to begin with. Not judging... Just being honest. But all banter aside. My secret is one that is shared by approximately 5.7 million adult Americans, or about 2.6% of the U.S. population, age 18 and older, (National Institute of Mental Health) as of 2013. This past week I was diagnosed with Bipolar Depression. I was shocked. However after a an episode that landed me in the hospital for six days... I've accepted this and have learned a lot about myself, this disorder, and God's purpose in allowing this thorn to be placed in my life.
    I say allowing not because I feel that I am being punished, but because GOD IS IN CONTROL OF ALL THINGS. And research shows that though life has thrown me a curve ball or two, I was BORN THIS WAY. For some this would be disheartening. But with the grace, mercy, and wisdom of God I have found that this is no curse, but simply a condition of my flesh. Paul also had a thorn in his side. It isn't specifically stated what the said thorn was. But God's reply to Paul's beckoning Him to remove it is what has given me strength.
    2 Corinthians 12:7-10
    7 And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure.
    8 For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me.
    9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
    10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.

    God may have made me this way, but through my weakness His strength is made perfect. If God never delivers me of this thorn I am still joyous because He has made me strong. How you may ask. By going through this I have learned that my Soul, Mind, and Body must be kept healthy that I may be a effective and efficient tool for God. For I am nothing more than a tool. Some may be reading at this point and wonder if I placed the wording wrong on the aforementioned, well known, cliché. We've always heard it Mind, Body, and Soul. However we've been saying it wrong. Why does this matter... Because when we list things, we tend to list them in a matter of importance. And though we are here in the Physical Realm, we must remember that our goal is to attain perfect peace with God in the Heavens (Spiritual Realm). Therefore no matter what battles we face of our flesh, we must never allow them to distract us from the war that wages for our souls.... To Be Continued

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