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Reason's why I screw up when dating

• Posted by Meg and Ion November 22, 2018 - 576 views
  Reasons why I screw up when dating
  
  1. I get eager and overly excited when someone shows interest
  
  2. My insecurities tell me i'm not good enough
  
  3. Its easier to sabotage things to avoid getting hurt first
  
  4. The truama I've endured from childhood to adulthood has alienated me. I'm like a wild animal incapable of communicating/ connecting in a "normal" way. I'm a stray in need of tlc.
  
  5. I assume they will hurt me
  
  6. Texting is impersonal and I often misunderstand
  
  7. Getting mixed messages from them makes me panic
  
  8. I am not always understanding but when I try to work on it I overcompensate and come across as "trying to hard" or forcing things
  
  9. I need some kind of reassurance there's an interest
  
  10. I'm too open and honest
  
  11. I overanalyze
  
  12. I've never been raised to be or feel like i'm anything special (my traumas just confirm/ reinforce this)
  
  13. I don't believe or trust most people
  
  14. Sarcasm
  
  15. I frequently put my foot in my mouth
  
  16. I dont have many suitors so when my eagerness kicks in I start to panic and don't know what to do or say
  
  17. When I make mistakes I desperately want to fix them. Even if they're trivial
  
  18. When he kissed me and told me i was pretty i thought that maybe...just maybe i had a chance
  
  19. I take things to personally
  
  20. I'm rusty
  
  21. I've loved but never been in love which I desperately seek/ache for. Which makes me panic and want to rush when someone does show an interest.
  
  22. I'm not dating material
  
  23. They confuse the fuck out of me
  
  24. I wear my heart on my sleeve
  
  25. I can't get them out of my mind.
  
  26. I misinterpret the signs
  
  27. I have no hope
  
  28. I'm way too shy breaking the ice
  
  29. My guard is constantly up and down there's no in between
  
  30. I'm afraid to make a first move (most of the time i'm rejected and defeated).
  
  31. Nervousness which turns into me fumbling with shit
  
  32. Being an introvert
  
  33. Saying way too much and or wayyy too little there's no in between
  
  34. Feeling like an imposition or burden
  
  35. Desperation
  
  36. Impatient
  
  37. My all around bratty-ness
  
  38. Hormones
  
  39. Fear
  
  40. Incapable of forming complete thoughts
  
  41. Terrible at giving and receiving compliments
  
  42. I should just give up now
  
  43. Guilt I'm constantly beating myself up
  
  44. I go from one extreme to the next
  
  45. I'm terrible at keeping it cool
  
  46. Depression and ptsd